just thinking and hi

sometimes I wonder about people i used to know and hang out with in WoW or even in various other games and online places.

like are they still there but as a different avatar? like me still there but someone else.

I actually like the game (WoW) still but don't play all that much, life is so much, it's good but harder in ways.

I can see again, since the cataract was removed do games are more fun again, getting the other one done soon so 3d vison again, yay!

but yeah, I think about people and just wonder where they are and are they ok?

I hope everyone is  doing well, that they are living thir lives fully or at least the best they can and are enjoying stuff.

it's so weird how you can be so (seemimgly?) close to people  and they just dissapear, or you do I guess

Not on the blog much, still playing WoW though

I still enjoy the game , I play quite a bit , still don't have Draenor flying,  but i tend to not go there except maybe to my garrison, if that. ( I have a character on eldest childs account that  I fly around there on) There are some pretty places, but meh, maybe my annoyance or just really great anger over the almost no flying lingers and is directed at Dreanor. It would greatly improve the game to just get flying I would pay 60$ us just to buy it, as I hate questing and rep stuff , i wander and pet battle. Much of the story makes me roll my eyes, this world is full of unreasonable people who  just forever  do senseless things.  like there is great danger lets all fight amongst ourselves, why not ?

Draenor is just not appealing to me, i caught a few pets I liked like the toucan looking ones , the green is my favourite. just love that little bird.  A lot of the neater pets you can just buy from the AH.

I finally got the baron's mount, so that was nice , and it took a bit long, like years too long.

I like the ghost pets from halloween quite a bit too, my little ghost maggot is adorable. having a critter haunted garrison is pretty neat too.

I still spend most of my time on the timeless isles, I just like it there a lot. I think it was one of the best designed  places ever. Actually I like Pandaria overall.

I also avoid most of the WoW community, even on tumblr ( actually especially on tumblr) people get pretty negative. ( although I guess this is kinda negative)

Not sure why i enjoy playing so much , but I do love pet battling and farming for stuff and  nifty clothes (not that my outfits matter i'm almost always in cat form  of flight form)

I still think WoW is one of the prettiest games, most other games have too much detail for detail 's sake and it  starts to look weird, plus the colours on WoW are just better. Most other games look  oddly washed out and faded.

The not so fast brewfest ram and me, also trust

So, I am more or less unquitting , although my quitting probably had little effect on Blizzard, because although now unsubscribed , its still paid till September  something. I did unsub my EU account and haven't resubbed.

But your probably wondering about the Brewfest ram.

So rather a long time ago, back during the first Brewfest   Blizzard did something kinda neat. You could through tickets at level 40 get a quest  paper thingy that let you buy the Brewfest rams. This was pretty neat because up until then any cool thing was reserved for max level character, sure you had to be level 40 but it was doable.

I was really excited because although my priest was near max level, my druid was lvl 21 and I so wanted the ram for my druid. I  leveled my druid and got the ram. this took a lot of effort and i was sick at the time so probably wearing my self out leveling was a bit unreasonable.

My best friend insisted it would be there next year. and I should rest, but no I got the ram. Ok I was a bit unhealthily obsessed. My guild thought I was crazy. Do you know why I got the ram that year? It was because I knew it was too cool, it was way to fun, way to great for a non max level character to get and I said, you know they're gonna remove this. My friend and I argued about it and I was adamant,  I was getting the ram now because it would be gone.

Guess what? blizzard removed the ram. you cant get the slow lvl 40 Brewfest ram anymore unless you did the quest. It was too easy, I guess or too fun or  the horde shouldn't get an alliance mount. I was right, but not happy about being right.

I played since vanilla, I already knew you couldn't trust blizzard, if its fun, they will take it away  or nerf it. I really don't get them I think there is some sort of griefer type person high up in their hirearchy.

So I'm still playing, I'm glad flying s back, as I kinda like grinds, but I still don't trust Blizzard.

I'm also buying Final Fantasy when I can afford it for me eldest child, after I build them a new PC that can run it.

Not exactly sure what I'm saying here , but Blizzard hasn't exactly changed all that much, you could see this removing thing even back in The Burning Crusade, I' saw the pattern a long time ago. When they took out flying I wasn't all that surprised , actually I wasn't surprised, disapointed  though .

No flying, I quit.

No more WoW . Not for me, eldest resigned their raid spot. All canceled, may not even log in to play out my last few of months.

Be well everyone.

That is all.

some game stuff, mostly complaining

I find no flying in Draenor very annoying. I just do , I think  one of the things I mostly like about WoW is flying. When I used to also play Perfect World it was because I like to fly they have winged Elves that can fly from level one everyone else can get mounts at some later time. Back then I thought flying would make WoW better, and it did , but not knowing if I will get it back annoys me and makes me kinda sad and angry.

I'm mostly playing an account without Warlords of Draenor, because well, no point in Draenor if no flying ever. I canceled my mains sub with my complaint it will run out sometime next month.

I'm also not happy with how much they have been changing things in general, excessive change for what feels like no good reason annoys me.  Basically they have made almost all classes and specs I played except cat druids and  beast mastery hunters( to be honest my hunter really just runs around collecting pets and fishing I really don't know haw to play her properly, but she gets what I want to do done, but her pet dies a lot now ) are kinda un fun in a way I can't explain exactly, but it is irritating to have to relearn stuff, I can but it takes time and I play Wow to relax not have to think  hard. If I want to think hard there are other things to learn , like classes and other hobbys.

I healed two random PuGs on my druid and it was hard, not in a fun way either. For me there was this thing about healing, there is this way of timing stuff your brain does unconsciously after having done it a bit, like how you know long a pan of water will take to boil because you have done it and also with cooking other things it sorta like an internal sense of timing so base on variables you make choices that get outcomes you want. Healing was like that in vanilla WoW also through Wrath, at least for me. I would get a feel for how damage was coming in and know what spell to choose, and usually it went rather well. It doesn't seem to feel like that any more , like you have less choice and somehow  heals just don't cover damage group members are taking. It just doesn't feel like that anymore , or I am just not caring enough, but darn I miss that feeling, maybe I just haven't healed much lately but I would think it would be there a little. I'll keep trying for a while, may just be lack of trying, but yeah change can annoy me.

Garrisons seem kinda neat, but since I'm avoiding Draenor I haven't done much, the horde one makes me feel cold and I'm already cold , its very cold here so very cold. Eldest child informs me one of the  followers  has the same name, class and spec and race as my character, so that's amusing. Her feet are probably cold like mine right now though.

I do still like Wow. I know I sound like I don't but I do and I still have fun doodling about. I don't think I need a break did have one for a while while I was without a WoW capable computer, but I built a new one it's quite nice, better then my old one.

There have been a lot of changes in my out of game life . Things are seeming settled and I do have time for WoW now so I'll probably be here more, some of my real life stresses are less overall, so I can interact with the world in a better way.

Still there, waiting to lure the unwary....

...or at least the determined who really like trick or treating, and maybe bobbing for apples 

two large grey birds flying in a damaged inn near a candy filled pumpkin bucket

I still enjoy getting candy from the haunted inn in Stonetalon, I think about the ghost of the innkeeper who so kindly places out candy buckets for travelers, they must have really loved the holiday, but it's a little sad too.

thoughts

I think I should change the blogs name, to people in PuGs are scary , avoid at all costs. Or just something else.

I am still playing but got sick again, (pneumonia this time, a bit of advice if you are coughing up blood you may want to go to the doctor not wait a week mkay?) pet battles are nice for nights you are up coughing because laying down is bad, and not much happens if you just fall asleep.

hope everyone had happy holidays and the new year is the best ( but not ever just till now, and life keeps improving )

I may just start posting a comic  here because it actually takes me a long time to write  even short posts, but pictures are easier. ( 34 minutes so far on this one)

I still am not sure what to do at  90 , since  I ma so avoident of people. also so much content is well flashy and I have enough seizures ( I thing twoish a week is enough, but more meds and I start shuffling around wanting to eat brains, or sleep and my anxiety is less but who wants to be a zombie.) without adding them to gaming time. Although  /console colorblindshader 8 ( thanks tumblr, and yes not its intended use but heplful)  makes things much better, and solves the setting my graphics card back and forth between my safe settings and my doing art settings.

So possibly amsing comics and some art coming up but I give up on PuGs ( the dogs are still cute ) maybe a  blog namechange.

New expansion and stuff

Time travel confuses me, so now there will be pandas all over the past. ( alternate past??? I have read over info but am still confused , it will take some time to process) I like pandas so i guess that is ok. I think I maybe can keep two classes in my head to play so for pandas I think shaman and then  druids otherwise. I like monks but three classes is too much to remember buttons for. I still play hunters ( 'cause pets) but frankly I just solo and sorta randomly hit keys.

I like  what I see of the new models. I wish the Tauren were more fluffy  like the Yangol. Dwarf female looks pretty nice, dwarves can be shaman  so good.

Garrison seems kinda cool like a form of player housing, but will it become pointless like the farm? i ma not sure I like how things get obsolete like that it feels weird, you work hard on it then  it's irrelevant. Kind of like how Pokemon dream world is now, I am annoyed about that i liked my house and furniture now  irrelevant  and * poof * gone i January.

Instant 90 will be nice I think but since I already have druid 90's  it won't be  that needed.

I am moderately excited.

Right now Pokemon is still a bit more interesting then WoW.

so last year....

Blizzard said something about an invisible option for battlenet, but I tried the new interface and saw nothing.
Did they forget or something or were they just lying.

Moon moon, pumpkins and Pokemon

having obtained about 13 Moon moons, ( I gave one away so really 12 now) I will be taking a break from World of Warcraft because even though those Moon moons need to be trained and battled, my true gaming love is out with a new version , or versions and all of my gaming attention will be diverted to Pokemon X and Y. This version has a ghost /grass type that looks like a jack o lantern, I may have a new favourite!

Perhaps I'l log on, for a bit to collect more sinister squashlings during Hallows End,  and have a go at the headless horseman. I have one bank tab nearly full of squashlings, butI need more squashlings , because I plan to take over the world with pumpkins mwahhahah!

Or I just want to see if my son really will kick me from the guild  if I fill up one full tab plus with them.

Max level again, Monk reaches 90

So One year out the first monk I made in Mists is now 90. She's doing well, running for her life on the isle and killing non elites, because I am an ok cat druid but my monk has only been a healer, so when I got tokens they all went for healing , without any thought for DPS.

 a humanoid panda girl running from four tigers with  a fifth one further back stunned by a spiky purple spell

My druid is also a failure at healing, because lightning is bad for my brain in any form. Except maybe shaman lightning , but I tent to close my eyes a lot while playing my shaman (if elemental) and she was mostly a healer.

I have also been up to oddball hijinks.

This character is level one, she looted that ruby droplet four times, actually, but I gave one away to a crying paladin, he had been there for days. ( I had seen him for days on my druid and know how sad that can be.)  , but I got a summon, lovely view  and if I hit garnia , or just miss a lot, I can loot , almost to two thousand timeless coins, anyhow  this amused me, another bank alt I'll need to level.

An elf with aqua hair under water in a reddish lake fighting a red and  tarnished silver  fish masked  inverse teardrop bodied creature from behind. a small version of the creature floats behind her.

Aqua haired elf standing beside the small fish masked creatute with a red tinged pond behind her.

So it's been a fun week. 

Isle of shiny things

I love shiny things, ok , now that's done, I will say what i think of the timeless Isle.

There are many sparklies many things to find an pick up and collect and , I must say I find it quite fun.

When I got there though, it was sorta  of a nightmare, a crane pretty much kicked my kitty butt.

Although I had reached 90 on two druids playing as a cat, and have four 80 druids and another 87 druid ( on this account)  I just sorta wasn't all that good. ( I can still heal , but so far healing stuff to death doesn't work.)

Stuff on the island was a bit harder then the stuff I'd vanquished while leveling and, despite my embarrassment my early demise to a big pink crane I didn't give up , the spirit healer shooed me back into the world right by a snake.... and I died again, after they sent me back to the land of the living with some words of encouragement ( or maybe they just rolled their eyes). I thought to myself, maybe this is a great opportunity to learn how to get better, Ok so at first I was just annoyed and went and collected some glinting sand, and after a few more chats with the spirit healer ( we've spent some quality time together in the past, we're kinda like friends and not too many people stick around and chat so they gets lonely) . I did actually decide to do some research.

You can probably tell I'm not all that great at DPS, in fact I won't say how bad I was when I got there just that it would have been sad numbers in Wrath, so I went and read some stuff in between  collecting chests
(shiny!!!) and running for my life.

Anyhow I got some various armour piece tokens and figured out what to do with them and then I went and killed that crane.

Up until the Isle though  I really hadn't had to do much to finish quests and kill stuff. I really had no idea what I was doing even if I was having my solo fun ( I did heal dungeons and scenarios and stuff but like I said healing is different).

The Island is not only a good catch up for gear but also to learn how to play. For example for the cranes the very basic get out of the bad or run behind the crane thing. The snakes you need to stun ( or just stand near an apple tree and eat the apples ( like a lightwell?) actually ripe crisp fruit  healing yourself ... snakes and apples  * snickers*) . Foreboding flames you interrupt their bolt and move away before their ground effect. Everything has something you have to actually think about,  it also helps to know what tools you have to do what you need to for the encounters. This sort of thing may be useful for someone who has obliviously sauntered their was to max level, and it's defiantly better then just tossing gear their way ( ok, it sorta does just toss gear your way) . So I figured some things out gemmed and enchanted my gear and am not quite embarrassed by my DPS ,( just by the fact I used my  DPS gems and enchants on my healing gear  because the icons look the same ) sure I can and will improve , but it's a very fun way to catch up . ( don't worry you won't see me as DPS in group content for a while,well the brewfest guy but 52 k is ok? ) I even got a new pet, which the me who arrived at the island last week could have never had any chance of farming up.

A Blue maned troll in cat form druid standing in front of a blue bonfire with a small cat headed glowing blue spirit 

another 90, this is weird

My other druid is 90, ( ok so she is one of many druids , oh so many druids)

grey and white troll cat druid

She is a troll, and I got her up there so I could see the whole Darkspear rebellion, from the horde side.

I think the horde version seemed a lot cooler, if a bit more difficult. The taking of razor hill was hard , but then I found the guy who gives you the heal buff and that  helped a lot.

My son is in a raiding guild now, tanking, so he is looking forward to the new raid and all.

My game has become very solitary.

Maybe I'll find myself a guild , one that is social but not distressing.

Much of the new content is just to flashy for my brain to take, although it may be that melee gets you in the thick of everyone's effects. I may try looking for raid just because gear, ( better gear means I can solo more old stuff) but I also think I may be too useless.

Worgen druid has been doing scenarios as either moonkin or healing, and it has been going well, moonkin has you standing back , same with healing. Troll druid has been doing them as a kitty, but only two a day .

I'm still not exactly sure what I want to do at 90, I'll probably solo a lot of older stuff and collect pretty outfits , mounts and pets.

Not warcraft related ( skip if you don't want to hear my rant about ableism)

Ok, so I have been busy, with my normal life.

I am so sick of the world and it's shit sometimes.

I went out to  a coffee shop/ bakery with my daughter.

At a table criss cross were two people having a discussion.

Man and woman discussing another woman who had been hit by a car and injured last year ago, she had brain damage she had seizures , some memory problems but from their conversation was not unhappy . they talked how she still did stuff with her kids had to have aids for memory stuff (notes perhaps, I know I need notes and alarms galore.) her family loved her and was happy she was alive. Mostly the woman talking knew the family , so she talked about the good things, and haw she was still in many ways the same but ( there is always the but.... ehh?) She had  pnemonia. The woman was hopeful it was not so serious and she would get better. The man declared it would be better if she died because she would never go back to her old life job and was just a burden now.

Seriously WTF dude?

So by account of someone who knew her, she was part of a loving family who wanted her alive and this  guy thinks her life is worthless because disability. ( seizure are just too scary to let those epileptics around kids you know.)

Ok, so maybe just maybe, I take when people say shit like this personally ( because I have brain damage and seizures plus other disabilitys).

I rather like being alive I hate that many people think that if you are not fully normal you are worthless.

Disabled people are not valued in our society.

I hate how  parents will kill or attempt to kill their disabled children and , their parent who kills will get sympathy for their difficulties " oh raising that child was so hard, " they  say " I can completely understand and  the parent has my sympathy" The parent does not have my sympathy, they have only my disdain and disgust. You are BAD parent and also a bad person if you try and kill your kid!

I was a difficult kid. My parents adopted me. They expected a healthy normal baby. I was not, I had an autism diagnosis at 6 plus was thought to be mentally retarded I would get throw out of school for violent outbursts, ( I spent much of my early school in special ed learning how to  sort of act normal or at least not disrupt) I was kicked off the bus in first grade. Because of physical abnormalities my parents had to pay out of pocket for surgerys so I could walk . ( pre existing condition insurance would not cover )

My parents never once even thought about killing me. They love me and support me.

My family likes me alive and with them, even if I am different now. ( my inability to tell left from right does sort of leave my son exasperated  =P  ) No one is perfect.

My friends like me too even if I am not so quick as I was and forget stuff.

yay...90

My druid is 90, this is pretty fast in an expansion fr me to get to max level.

I am sorta unexcited about it.

Yes, I can solo more stuff, and she's on an empty server, so my son's main can be dragged over to her pandaria for killing warbringers ( he must have all the mounts, it's actually why I did get to 90 at all ) and kill rares, there are herbs and ore galore, and maybe five greens in the leather chest piece  section of the AH ( ok,so it was pre 61 but still, not much to choose from).

We went to the barrens to  help trolls or something. We killed horde so that was good I think. Some I could kill, mostly the peon type ones, but others were more dangerous, like that one goblin.

A dead worgen in the foreground, a small pink haired gnome attacking fighting a very large green goblin, a blue demon  attacking the goblin too.

My druid died, but it was an epic gnome VS goblin showdown, the goblin lost, and the gnome kindly soulstoned the druid and she was back to life, and now contemplating her general lack of gear and probably skill.

Gnome and demon  look over the body of the dead goblin admiring their handiwork. Worgen contemplates how the
barrens smell.

So this is 90, maybe I should just grow more pumpkins. 

oh hi...

I have been tired a lot of late. Convergence is also coming up. ( a convention that is local to me)

I am doing stuff.

Making a Mylune doll.

Making dolls to photograph a reenactment of being Navispammed. ( I started this months ago I work slowly)

Hopefully I will have my plush imp and starter warlock robes finished for the convention.

I also hope to get my Worgen druid to 90 by months end.

I am also being annoyed at the lack of pet battle exp.

So I am busy and still thinking of here.

pet battles day one

I know I have been away a bit but I was planning on doing this, but life gets busy.
Here is day one in comic form, I plan to do all in comic form .

always the last minute

Ok , not quite the last minute.

I used to be a bank al- err  I used to manage this mages overflow of possessions, after all, the world is a dangerous place and Stormwind is generally safe.

I had only ever really been to Northshire abby,  with a quick  pass through Goldshire  on my way to Stormwind before Thursday night when...

There I was at the mailbox and this worm thing sat there in a pool of slime next to a well dressed fellow with a bow.  I was annoyed for a moment at the ooze, as it slowly sunk into my shoes thinking " eww there just aren't that many foot wear options at my station in life"  but then I thought to myself  , hmmm slime trails, I'll never get lost again.

I commented on how big and impressive his worm was. He glared at me and said, "Why can't people like you stay in Goldshire ...."

Wasn't the most pleasant fellow.

I decided that was the pet for me. ( not his my own, I wouldn't steal someones pet....)

I needed to get stronger.

I went to the Inn my warlock friend was staying at and said  " We need to go out in the world and  become stronger"

She was bored so she agreed, after I gave her fifty gold, something about her imp being annoying and her wanting a new one.

But I got distracted.... frequently.

" Look pretty flowers!"

" a fishing pool!"

" That undead critter looks like a challenge for my squirrel..."

"Hey, I bet there are some treasure chests around here...."

I wasn't sure I would make it.

I did though.

I even met a nice hunter from far away, and we both got a pet larva.

It is really is a big worm.

I probably still get lost though.

This imp's kinda annoying too....

silly

Look ! new pet! he's translucent!

   So what part of kill the wolf and get back the sword did you not understand ?

lamp posts

In Vanilla I was on auto run and got stuck on a lamp post, somehow actually stuck in it as in not able to escape it.

Since then they have been the enemy.

If I have a character on follow  they will inevitably be caught on a lamp post.

I have blinked into lamp posts, thus the name of the blog my son and I have ( currently not doing much since he is taking a break from WoW)

I have rolled into lamp posts. My monks head still hurts. Even though she's undead and probably feels nothing.

See that bend, that was me!

Tonight I disengaged into a lamp post.

At least there are no gazebos.

I would be so doomed.